well tmr's the first day of school. again. and today is the end of 'summer' blah. i hope i get a good year. get into UT or St. Washington. if i get into washington. well. i'm going to be out there alone ALL BY MY SELF D: but then no offense, if i did get into both of these schools, im' taking washington, it's in the top 20s. funny how they're contacting me for a year or so and UT only did it once cuz i went to them o_o; well. washington is 40 grand a year. and UT well i know it's cheaper lol.
school year, senoir year. i hope i can go to prom on a date. o_o *dont wanna be one of cindy's girls lol jk. * we got to get nickkie to go to lol. i want fishy science. i like fish.
eat them play with them hook them. all fun. lol. need to study ACT which i'm not doing. oops. maybe later. lol. apply for UT and Washington and pravie w/e that is. keep up tennis and clubs. oh and my heb job. i might get fired even tho i'm one of the 'best' baggers they have for a while. so they say.
fucked up my times. i have to skip out 15 hrs this week cuz of school. plus i already got in trouble for coming in too early. wtf? plus i'm not talkative. i keep forgetting to ask heather to change my number since i dont have a cell anymore. i still dont know who to call when i can't work cuz i'm sick. damn i'm fucked big time. yea gunan get fired. where should i work next then? i keep getting hard times when finding a job. so craps. heb was luck cuz of my dad, he knows everyone there and everyone appearlty knows me. plus theres some creeps over at work. they scare me greatly.
i sent my times as i'm busy at 6 am to 7 pm for school for clubs, studying, college, etc. and i somehow made sat my day off. i'll change that later. i need to work as much as possible cuz i can't rely on scolorships. and i dont want a loan. plus grands say they'll give me one grand if i get into UTaustin ONLY so ... let's say i got into princeton. they wont give me a dime. wtf? lol.
life; all by your self. well most likey , where ever i go to college, i'm probably going to live near there. if not. maybe austin/Cali. duno for sure. cant really return to the country. tree n grass will kill me... so yea i knew it. i'm doomed to live in teh city for EVER D: how did i know? -_-; .... HiSkool, college, house, (refuses to be in an apartment, crazy shit happens there when i'm around... seriously.) family? i want to get married i know that. probably go against my parents consent. meh half the world does that. kids... semi semi. do i really want to go into labor and do all that OMFG PUSH! D: dun think so... maybe i can invent something where the hubby get's preggy instead
but then we're still in teh stage of OMFG NO LES/GAY ALLOWED D: so.. this may take a while. jobs. well probably work as much as possible anyways. money is the basic of all life nowadays. money gets teh food, clothes, bills, etc. all them crap. then die. since teh trees/grass i knew i can't go back to the country as soon as i left it. well i'm probably going to die early. which in a way would be great since i wont have to deal with all this crap. but then there'll be lots of ppl who'd miss me. and maybe be pissed ... yea pissed. and might go down in hell, grab my ass out, and beat me with a brick or something. that would just suck. meh.
yep got my plans for the rest of my life already. good bye childhood. FOREVER AND EVER :'(
high school - college - living on your own -death
not a happy future for me....
why must i become an adult? D:
WHY DO I HAVE TO BE HUMAN?!?! D:
good bye good old times. so long. i'll miss you. forever and ever. and all there shall lay are nothing but mermories since my parents like to throw everything away...
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ho snap, this is very long. lol i ranted.
Sorrow
